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v5!

20th july 2023

fri, 9:02pm

it rained so hard today. i know i live in a wet area but this was ridiculous. you could actually hear the rain crashing onto the roof. this meant i couldn't do much.

i watered my plants though. since i mainly keep cacti and succulents (because they're the only indoor plants i can keep alive) i don't need to water them as often, so when i do water them it's a good time to check on how they're doing. my succulent is still flowering, the first flower is shrinking away but two new ones have fully sprouted and i can see two others just beginning to open up. the plant grows these absolutely gorgeous bright orange flowers, and they add a lovely pop of colour to my windowsill. it's amazing to see how large this particular plant has gotten since i bought it, i've had it for about a year and it's almost tripled in size. i'll probably never be able to move it outside because it's far too wet and cold here and we don't have a greenhouse or anything, so i guess i'll be repotting it forever. to be honest i'm too sentimentally attached to it to see it go.

15th july 2023

sun, 6:02pm

im testing out these subheadings with the day and time for my entries. not sure if i like how they look yet... i'll look at it with fresh eyes tomorrow i think.

i actually did a lot today! i woke up at 8am on a weekend which is unheard of for me. i went to a museum me and my family used to go to a lot when i was younger, there was a big nostalgia factor to it because i remembered looking at a lot of the exhibits before. i especially liked an area with lots of old victorian dresses. i genuinely wished i could take some of them home with me. i'd never have any excuse to wear them though.

after lunch i looked around some more then went to a comic shop which was blaring the smiths at full volume. good music taste but my ears were dying.

bye!

13/10/23

it's friday the thirteenth wooooo spooky... the superstitions are definitely holding up because i woke up absolutely exhausted today. i still managed to drag myself out of bed though. and now i have a week off of school!! so i don't have to wake up at quarter to 6 anymore. i'm definitely thankful for that.

i'll probably be getting a part time job soon. it's slightly terrifying but i figured that if i have to get an actual job one day i might as well get some experience of what work is like. i'll also have some degree of financial independence which will be nice.

5 things i can see:

  • computer
  • window
  • pencils
  • books
  • photographs

10/10/23

life feels kind of monotonous at the moment. i think i've been waiting for a change in my life for a while, but nothing has really happened to me. i need to actually do it myself instead of sitting around and hoping. (that sounds so fake deep im sorry)

i've finished a painting though! so that's good at least. i've enjoyed taking up art again, i've felt pretty burnt out for the past year or so so it's good to get back into my old hobbies.

27/09/23

just passed a biology test. feeling very good about myself but also very anxious about the math test i also did today. (why must all of my teachers team up to make this specific week in september hell on earth, it happens every year)

i've noticed i mainly talk about school on here. i guess when you're a teenager it takes up such a massive portion of your time it's hard to write about much else. half my camera roll is just biology and chemistry notes. why i decided to take 2 science classes i'll never know. girlboss woman in stem etc etc

26/09/23

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(apologies for the 3 month disappearance. you did not infact see her tomorrow)

26/06/23

last three days of school.. i am Suffering but ill make it. hopefully. maybe..

school really sucks the life out of you. i feel like i've been sleepwalking through the first few days. pre exam terror has settled in very early this year and i'm already panicking, even though prelims don't start until january. i'm just filled with this feeling of dread every time i walk into that building.

for some reason i think blogging has made me more productive?? i guess writing down what i do each day encourages me to actually do things.

good bye all. i will see you tomorrow (maybe? who knows)

24/06/23

things are okay, i think. i've been pretty tired today and i haven't felt great, i think i have a cold or something, but i'm coping.

i think spending time outside today hasn't helped. it was 24 degrees today which is about the temperature when i start to really suffer. praying seasonal depression doesn't hit me as hard as it did last year..

i managed to clean my room today!! i never have the energy to do that sort of thing but i somehow decided it would be a good idea to do it today??? and i managed to! productive girl summer starts today i guess

goodbye and goodnight :))

22/06/23

i listened to haley heynderickx's fish eyes ep today. i liked it. i really don't know how to talk about music, or things in general, that i enjoy. putting my thoughts and feelings into words is something i really struggle with. this is incredibly cliche and cringy but music means a lot to me. mainly because my auditory processing disorder makes it very hard to step outside without some sort of hearing protection, especially when i'm stressed, so i tend to use it as an escape from the world. sounds can physically hurt, if that makes sense,,,

i don't know why, but i love the concept of blogging. you just write away about your life for strangers on the internet. it feels like sharing a piece of yourself.

i need to go cook something now or i'll rot away at this computer forever. bye :)

21/06/23

i haven't written about myself in a while. life has gotten hectic and i haven't had much time. i'm here now though, taking baby steps. i guess you have to start somewhere? haha (terrified)

the hot weather has really been affecting me for some reason. i can barely step outside without being blinded by the sun and there are bugs everywhere. i usually love any kind of insects but i have to draw a line somewhere. i don't even live in a hot part of the uk. this is the worst it's been in years. on a brighter note, i managed to get some painting done today (!!!). i need to buy myself some new watercolours, having younger siblings means that any kind of art supplies never last long. i make do as best i can, though, and i think it came out alright.

i think that's enough writing for today. i'm going to go drink some water and possibly touch some grass (if i'm feeling brave). bye!

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